still waiting for to rain.

california weather blows. the sun is too hot.
took metro again to L.A.. art workshop was tiring. i really need to get friday off sometimes. or i shall be insane

you dig?

missing the cloudy days when i walked home.

and i tend to use "dig" a lot these days. huh new trend for me, i guess.
i felt like a dis functional retard today. good? probably not. taking me at least 2 seconds to make it over one stair was really annoying. but that's what i get for being a total klutz yesterday. i guess i deserve it?
practiced for assembly today, we are totally bullshitting it. can we make this come out good? we will see tomorrow. hopefully it wont be so bad.
i miss those carefree days when i didn't have to think about the future ahead of me. its exciting but yet scary.

never knew scary white people drink at Starbucks. it was very startling.





scared for the future.

you dig?

whats on my mind.

finally got my portfolio back from artcenter. and scholarship results are coming back next month. cant wait, but than at the same time i can. nervous nervous. sent all my financial ad stuff and all i have to do is wait.

today was seriously a screwed up day.
i walked with jimmy to buy some strings for the assembly decorations and while passing by the front of the school where at least 10 seniors were hanging, i fell, and ended up rolling down the stairs. and yes my knees got fucked up.

ha my favorite children book since 3rd grade. goddamn jefferson elementry.

awesome.








Karma is a bitch

40 degrees outside.

seriously. this is not california weather.
too cold.

but if it snows. i dont mind


so i didnt get scholarship for SVA. so bummed
that means i should wish my dreams goodbye for
that school.

goodbye new york

so now i am starting to have a panic attack.
i am so freaked out and nervous about scholarship for
art center. ah shit shit
not cool

i am regretting now, i should of worked harder. and
worked till my eyes bleed and my arms and hands falls out.
regrets.dammit
so i guess pasadena is
where i am gonna go.whoo....
art center.

bullshit.
i am gonna stay in pasadena for the
rest of my life. i swear.
unless i wont have to miss old town. right?
and my high school friends that might end up going to
pcc. ha.

unless pcc is
better than UC riverside.

artcenter the land of fobby koreans. fun.

well i am gonna sob my way
to sleep. nites

currently drinking
snapple - green tea mango flavor
diet tea.

disappointing day.

hot.

so i went to go walking to Pasadena City Hall today

to get street parking permits,

but Maria accompanied me.
guess it was somewhat fun.
walking with our umbrellas,

Pasadena is way more pretty when it rains.

got there and forgot car registrations so i got frustrated,
so i have to go back tomorrow to get
street parking permits.

gah

but i saw a gigantic rainbow across the sky.
but didnt have a camera so i got bummed out.

but maria took pictures. so pictures plox.

so i had to finish 2 essays for English which i
should of done a week ago, that was
frustrating.

and i ate noodles 2 meals today. ah i feel bad. ramen is so bad
for you, its pure sodium. watch me get kidney stones.

bah.

artists are suppose to die young anyways right?



started sketchbooking again, cant stop drawing this one character
its addicting and fucking hilarious to draw


but that's just me

i' ve been craving for this fucking ring
for years now.
still don't know if i want it. 600 bucks? huh
way too much

but i rather

get this sexy lighter with huge blue flames than
that Armour ring


fucking sexy

no this is




SEX

dam you sang.

so i feel seriously useless, i tried painting on saturday because
i felt i was being lazy and since my painting skill is out the door
i seriously forgot how to paint. its not like i knew how to before
but i just got worse at it.

but my drawing for it wasnt as bad
i was actually proud of it.
fuhuhuhuhu


today is only tuesday, boring as hell. i finished 3 weeks of delayed english homework
am i suppose to be proud? or no ? i need to start my Ryman homework soon
but it so dam stupid. painting goddam still lifes every week
BULLSHIT. man no point to that. cmon figure painting. thinking of just
painting goddam fruits like everyone else, dont want to be the overachiever
like i was in my beginning Ryman class.

and i want to murder this one white girl in my class who draws mangas
like naruto and shit, i dont even know how she even got into the program.she
submitted goddam manga drawings. eh boring



i hate you sang for being so goddam good.i can never
catch up to you in painting like this, its just too good.
ah.

so i basically stole this from some dood's
blog that goes to Ryman Arts and is fucking
lucky to have sang for his class.

he finished this in less than 3 hrs. i hate you. sang

my spark for japan is back.

forgot to do my environmental science
report, finished it during class
i thought it was a miracle.

and

i think i am
getting a

bunny soon..


ha my love for japan is back

shou from alice nine

i dont know why but i
think this is adorable

haha mock of l' arc en ciel cover album
ha fun

hot.






so tired its 11:41

and watched some movie about
love square between 4 women and a guy
in Spain

thanks jax