still waiting for to rain.

california weather blows. the sun is too hot.
took metro again to L.A.. art workshop was tiring. i really need to get friday off sometimes. or i shall be insane

you dig?

missing the cloudy days when i walked home.

and i tend to use "dig" a lot these days. huh new trend for me, i guess.
i felt like a dis functional retard today. good? probably not. taking me at least 2 seconds to make it over one stair was really annoying. but that's what i get for being a total klutz yesterday. i guess i deserve it?
practiced for assembly today, we are totally bullshitting it. can we make this come out good? we will see tomorrow. hopefully it wont be so bad.
i miss those carefree days when i didn't have to think about the future ahead of me. its exciting but yet scary.

never knew scary white people drink at Starbucks. it was very startling.





scared for the future.

you dig?

whats on my mind.

finally got my portfolio back from artcenter. and scholarship results are coming back next month. cant wait, but than at the same time i can. nervous nervous. sent all my financial ad stuff and all i have to do is wait.

today was seriously a screwed up day.
i walked with jimmy to buy some strings for the assembly decorations and while passing by the front of the school where at least 10 seniors were hanging, i fell, and ended up rolling down the stairs. and yes my knees got fucked up.

ha my favorite children book since 3rd grade. goddamn jefferson elementry.

awesome.








Karma is a bitch

40 degrees outside.

seriously. this is not california weather.
too cold.

but if it snows. i dont mind


so i didnt get scholarship for SVA. so bummed
that means i should wish my dreams goodbye for
that school.

goodbye new york

so now i am starting to have a panic attack.
i am so freaked out and nervous about scholarship for
art center. ah shit shit
not cool

i am regretting now, i should of worked harder. and
worked till my eyes bleed and my arms and hands falls out.
regrets.dammit
so i guess pasadena is
where i am gonna go.whoo....
art center.

bullshit.
i am gonna stay in pasadena for the
rest of my life. i swear.
unless i wont have to miss old town. right?
and my high school friends that might end up going to
pcc. ha.

unless pcc is
better than UC riverside.

artcenter the land of fobby koreans. fun.

well i am gonna sob my way
to sleep. nites

currently drinking
snapple - green tea mango flavor
diet tea.

disappointing day.

hot.

so i went to go walking to Pasadena City Hall today

to get street parking permits,

but Maria accompanied me.
guess it was somewhat fun.
walking with our umbrellas,

Pasadena is way more pretty when it rains.

got there and forgot car registrations so i got frustrated,
so i have to go back tomorrow to get
street parking permits.

gah

but i saw a gigantic rainbow across the sky.
but didnt have a camera so i got bummed out.

but maria took pictures. so pictures plox.

so i had to finish 2 essays for English which i
should of done a week ago, that was
frustrating.

and i ate noodles 2 meals today. ah i feel bad. ramen is so bad
for you, its pure sodium. watch me get kidney stones.

bah.

artists are suppose to die young anyways right?



started sketchbooking again, cant stop drawing this one character
its addicting and fucking hilarious to draw


but that's just me

i' ve been craving for this fucking ring
for years now.
still don't know if i want it. 600 bucks? huh
way too much

but i rather

get this sexy lighter with huge blue flames than
that Armour ring


fucking sexy

no this is




SEX

dam you sang.

so i feel seriously useless, i tried painting on saturday because
i felt i was being lazy and since my painting skill is out the door
i seriously forgot how to paint. its not like i knew how to before
but i just got worse at it.

but my drawing for it wasnt as bad
i was actually proud of it.
fuhuhuhuhu


today is only tuesday, boring as hell. i finished 3 weeks of delayed english homework
am i suppose to be proud? or no ? i need to start my Ryman homework soon
but it so dam stupid. painting goddam still lifes every week
BULLSHIT. man no point to that. cmon figure painting. thinking of just
painting goddam fruits like everyone else, dont want to be the overachiever
like i was in my beginning Ryman class.

and i want to murder this one white girl in my class who draws mangas
like naruto and shit, i dont even know how she even got into the program.she
submitted goddam manga drawings. eh boring



i hate you sang for being so goddam good.i can never
catch up to you in painting like this, its just too good.
ah.

so i basically stole this from some dood's
blog that goes to Ryman Arts and is fucking
lucky to have sang for his class.

he finished this in less than 3 hrs. i hate you. sang

my spark for japan is back.

forgot to do my environmental science
report, finished it during class
i thought it was a miracle.

and

i think i am
getting a

bunny soon..


ha my love for japan is back

shou from alice nine

i dont know why but i
think this is adorable

haha mock of l' arc en ciel cover album
ha fun

hot.






so tired its 11:41

and watched some movie about
love square between 4 women and a guy
in Spain

thanks jax

it's time.

so. happy birthday
joyce

truly love strawberry choco cakes.

day when everything started.

so today is 2.28
my birthday.
didn't notice till my friend pointed
it out yesterday.

James Jean designing for wine bottles?
and yes, these wines
actually tastes pretty great.

found these images on flickr
ha its so hot

my love for women who can
look like men.
i think its so damn hot.

and

i just love the clothes, its
awesome

i never knew finishing up with
college applications and
portfolio would make you feel
so useless.

i spent all day
surf webbing
or w.ever

currently listening to .
postcards from far away by Coldplay





happy birthday Joyce <3

how does it feel being seventeen?
missing being sixteen but still welcoming seventeen.

internet ish back.

hot.

so i have my internet back.
and secured it so 7 other people around
my neighborhood wont steal my internet.
finally about 4 weeks of being bored
out of my mind

thinking of updating a lot more.
and i finally submitted my portfolio for
art center. but i feel more
empty than being happy.

i initially have nothing to do now, i don't
even have my sketchbooks to draw from
and i don't feel like getting a new one.
because i have no point of
making one.


so i am just gonna waste away till i get into
college.

thats awesome

stealing internet from starbucks.

awesome picture i found at flickr while looking for pictures to draw from.

i didnt have internet for the past 3 weeks
pain? yes. so stealing internet
at starbucks. ha.

so i still didnt finish my sketchbook, so i cant
submit it to art center,
needa hurry,
drawing people at starbucks

and lastly




i got into





SVA!

NY here i come.

chillax

its been a long time since i had a time to breathe.

sketchbooks, i need to finish.
i need to submit 3, but i found out i have 4
but i have to finish my latest one
since thats the strongest...
ahh

cant wait till may, when everything is over.

sunday is tomorrow!

for those people that are making
art porfolio for college.

dont slack off!!!
work your ass off till you die!
because at the last 2 months before
application deadline, you
will die.

so one week left.

week left till everything is due.
ahh about 5 art works due this week.
this is insane.
not only that but college apps
and essays! ah shit

the things thats bothering me these days...
one of my pair of earrings is missing.
so i only have one for one ear..
which is totally useless
and my favorite hard metal necklace
split in half. like wtf.
and everything that i need for that specific day
tends to disappear and its not that
i misplaced them.
its just GONE!

i am beginning to believe that an elf is stealing my
stuff. there is no other better
explanation for this.

ahh yes. Eddie Redmayne
hes so cute

mosquitoes in winter?.

3 of them are bugging me at night.
killed one with a book.
2 more to go.

O:

Flumpool - over the rain
bloody monday was disappointing.

for you.

for my dear bitches

look at it much as you want.
O:

oh dear, maria.

so while I was raping maria's mind
and body.
I came upon this gorgeous dress.
and
it shall be mine

tired. going to bed.

5 more days.

Today, weather was cold hot cold hot
typical winter weather in
California.

school got boring again. and
fell asleep at Environmental class
and not even gonna
bother to study for econ test tomorrow.



I will say this loud and clear.
I am so willing to marry men who wears
kilts.
or
dresses.

none other than gorgeous
Vivienne Westwood herself and her
husband Andreas Kronthaler.


haha yes smoking men with dresses
what a turn on (:

while driving, my brother pointed out
that the car in front of us had a weird ass
plate.

it says. " demon deacons, wake forest university"

oh yes this coffee shop totally pulverizes Starbucks
to the core.

and
i still don't get why my
school is painting our tennis courts
blue and green..?....

school started.

didn't expected to be fun today
since school has officially started.

i missed my friends a lot. good to see them
again.

random things i find while surfing on
internet.


IVE CAPTURED A REAL PIKACHU!:)

ha i think this is awesome
i would always want a real pikachu.

:)

this will forever make me laugh.

currently listening to:

This Band Has No Name - Mistake.

ending song for Honey&Clover.

for vince, happy new years.

a foolish fool did not believe me
when I told him I see snow.
because I live in cali.

so just to give him a kick at his ass
I took pictures with the last remains
of my battery,

take that vince!

for sure that I have witnessed
snow!

because I had literally nothing to do

puahaha.